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Standing in the sun
Tearing from the light
It seriously only gets worse 
29th-Jul-2008 02:48 pm
My chest is filled with so much anxiety.

I've never been with a person who so deeply didn't want to be with me.
To me he's looking for reasons and if he wants to keep doing this then he should just dump me!
I personally like him. I'm able to get past his flaws, but every time we fight I can see that he's doing all he can to bring me down. Like purposely finding my weak points and choosing to exploit them.

But I am not weak. And despite how much I need this person I will not let them change me into what they need. Because what he needs is not me. If he so clearly sees this why must he offer so much resistance? He should just dump me if he doesn't like me because this is who I am. These mistakes he keeps finding are not things that I do on purpose. They are not things that would hurt me if someone were to do them to me for I do not see them as mistakes.

He is more different than I can handle. I can't fathom ever being able to grasp what he wants me to grasp.

So if that is what he needs then he won't ever find that in me.
Comments 
29th-Jul-2008 09:48 pm (UTC)
He might want you to break up with him, so he can put the blame on you... I'd walk away with my head hight though and move on!
30th-Jul-2008 08:00 pm (UTC)
i can see him being that person.

he didn't even dump his last girlfriend even after he found out she cheated on him. he's just that way...

this sucks
30th-Jul-2008 11:43 pm (UTC)
Don't let him get you down. Sounds like he's just looking to get you so riled up that you break it off with him or he has an excuse to break it off with you.
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