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I love you livejournal. (AKA I've figured out why I hate myspace) 
9th-Mar-2008 05:30 am
Because people need real friends. Myspace makes you feel lost in circles of advertisements and people you don't know with fake profiles and you might never get to find the page of your real life friends. Myspace is designed with the purposeful intention of filtering your search for your friends with advertisements of companies that you have never heard of, and if you have heard of them you don't know the makers of these companies in person.
These people who make these companies PAY Rupert Murdoch to fill your website experience with their pictures and products because they do not know you and they can't tell you to buy their products. They are not 'Man" enough to sell their own products. And I mean this more than the ability to sell their products with words, it's like they can't find the strength in their selves to sell you their product.

And people who make fake profiles are worse than people who own these forsaken companies who have achieved such mass production as to have the gall to pay Rupert to post them on myspace instead of the friends who you're really searching for. I searched 'Hilary Duff' one time and there were over 100 different profiles claiming they were the real Hilary Duff with pictures that they found on Google images. And young girls sometimes think they are REALLY writing to Hilary Duff who they see in all the movies.

And I also hate people who tell others to give up. Because giving up ultimately leads to death. People need a direction or else they get lost in confusion which leads to depression.

Kind of like the people search engine on Myspace. When you try to find your friends you have to search through all the other people with the same name or similar pictures...
and you have to start sorting through context clues like, "Oh, no they wouldn't have that quote." And it starts to feel so futile that you have to sift through the basic questions people answer in order to get their faces posted in the search engine (OR faces they find off Google images) just to capture their essence. Just to find the spark of recognition you have for that person in real life.

And that is why I hate myspace. Because I had to find out that one of my best friends is falling off the face of the earth through facebook. And when I tried to see if the same held true for the Myspace realm, I was bombarded by advertisements of products made by people who I don't know and could never capture the essence of, and fake profiles, millions of people with the same name, and in the end I couldn't even find him.

Because this thing was made in a desperate attempt to connect people to each other and in the end we have to realize we are far too separated from people who understand us in the slightest because of these modern times. We're all just growing farther apart.
If you could parallel the whole human race to the life span of just one, you would find that we are in an old era. The slightest essence of someone makes us think we know them because we have been there done that. Society is kind of like an elder person, stereotypes are just growing stronger because, like old people, society thinks it can classify someone as something that's already happened.
This is why people struggle so hard to set themselves apart, it's like trying to prove to an old person that you're right and not them.
Society is so convinced it has you PEGGED that it can capture your very essence in a search engine on myspace.

But that is just it. It doesn't even matter if you're right because we are all dying soon anyway.

Let's just hope that everyone is right enough to make it to the good place.

P.S. If I lost your grasp for any of this it's because typing is a difficult medium. It's more controlled than speaking, but not as free as if I could step you into my mind so you could see the fates I see for everyone. Like keys to all the locks and I have them, but nobody wants to listen because I'm just a 19 year old Cuban girl with DDs and a 120 Lb mass on a 5'3 and a half frame.

No I'm not God, because everyone thinks that God could just seep into their most desperate moments and make them happy,
just like everyone seems to think that drugs seep into your brain and make you see things that aren't there...

You can't see something that isn't already there
and God can't make you happy because you aren't smart enough to be. That is why you are in the pain you're in. Because you have to get smarter. Which involves SOO much MORE than knowledge.

And if you THINK that I am NOT going to tie this into my original thesis you haven't captured MY essence.

the reason why I hate myspace is because it's search engine challenges you.
It's not like facebook that makes everything as effortless as people think God would be, it challenges you to surpass all the advertisements, the fake people, the numerous people, to find the actual person who has an essence that you can recognize. And if you find someone that does, you add them, and you keep them as close to you as you can because they are going to be the people you see beyond this stage. The people who learned the life lessons you did, after this life you will be rewarded to finally be with the people who worked as hard and as smart as you did all your life.

And myspace makes me realize that those people are still out there. And I haven't been put on this plane all alone with no one to comprehend me. But facebook makes you feel all comfortable staying in your own Zone, only finding someone else if you know their whole name thus having met them personally. But myspace doesn't let you pretend this life is only this life. Myspace reminds you that there are people you don't know and still have to meet.


Especially if you're among the young of society. Because you still have NO CLUE what someone's stereotype should be.

And then again, (Read on only if you think you've stayed with me all the way through) old could be young and young could be old. We cannot fathom what God is really like. So all this work I have done to classify and order things may have been in vain.

Dumb people don't like to be told their dumb. And plus, dumb means you're at the back of the line towards gettin out of the hell hole that you only get escape from once you have learned to live smartly.


Ok... I'm sorry to say, but this is where... this is where typing stops. Because I just can't show you anymore. You'll probably think I'm crazy or really stupid because I didn't make sense to you.

Or maybe, just maybe, you'll think that I am dumb because you've thought all these thoughts and have surpassed them.
And if you have found the answers past where I have, won't you please message me? Because I have surpassed everyone that I know in real life, and I'm hoping I'm not alone all at the top of this mountain.
I'm hoping, that if someone comes and lights a candle, it'll show me that I am not at the top of some lonely old mountain, but just being born and opening my eyes for the first time on some new plane. With some people that understand me. Because I don't THINK for ONE MORE SECOND that I can live the rest of my life if nobody else knows JUST AS MUCH AS ME and will fucking TALK TO ME, or has surpassed me and will FUCKING POINT ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.










I have tried getting all As, making new friends SEVERAL and SEVERAL times, leaving my family to find a new one, sitting back and watching people til they show a spark of what I know, trying to enable others in on my knowledge, I have tried soo many things to feel like somebody understands where I am, and I've seen the alternative to finding those people, and it is really not pretty.

So this is why I hate myspace. Because I know that I will post this and wait and wait and nobody will ever find me because of it's STUPID FUCKING SEARCH ENGINE, that will deter my new possible best friend/ love of my life because of it's uncontrolled advertisements and unregulated FAKE PROFILES and unwarranted amount of people with the SAME NAME from ever finding me.

Even if my name is fucking "Charity Maria Sapphire Vergara" and I am as GOD DAMN authentic and different as anybody you will ever find. Regardless of how old I am or what my stereotype is.
Comments 
9th-Mar-2008 06:42 pm (UTC)
I feel the same way about myspace. Facebook is the same too.
11th-Mar-2008 12:54 am (UTC)
fuh'sho!

<3s
11th-Mar-2008 03:26 am (UTC)
i wonder if you read the whole thing??
11th-Mar-2008 09:17 am (UTC)
actually i did,
otherwise i wouldn't have posted any sort of response
& I DID notice that you posted this as a bulletin on Myspace as well..

~;-]
11th-Mar-2008 02:55 pm (UTC) - wowie!!
I always knew we had a special connection EJ!!!! ;)
16th-Mar-2008 10:11 pm (UTC)
that was pretty cool
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